In my impression, grandfather grandma is the word with two very shallow impression, hear of because I am old early, when I just was born, my grandma does not like me this grandchildren, hold me in the arms from the hospital secretly, lose outside. The close friends join forces that is me searched one in the evening, just found me what cry greatly around the hospital.
在我的印象中，爷爷奶奶是两个印象很浅的词，因为我老早就听说，在我刚生下来的时候，我奶奶不喜欢我这个孙子，偷偷把我从医院抱走，丢到外面。是我的亲朋好友合力找了一晚上，才在医院附近找到了大哭的我。
This is the heart knot that I hide all the time, although I also very respect them. But I do not understand really, why do they want so do? Why should divest a little life? More what is more,the rather that this or her flesh and blood, her grandchildren, how does she fall to go hand? No matter I am furtive in how illuminate, I cannot understand this kind of act from beginning to end, one rises ineffably also to complain in the heart read aloud desolate of a kind of inarticulate.
这一直是我暗藏的心结，虽然我也很尊重他们。但我真的不理解，为什么他们要那么做呢？为什么要夺去一个幼小的生命呢？更何况这还是她的骨肉，她的孙子，她怎么下得去手呢？不管我私下里如何阐释，这种行为我始终无法理解，心中也莫名地升起一股怨念一种说不出的落寞。
Because of this thing, my mother, grandmother follows me almost contact was broken in grandma home.
因为这件事，我的母亲、外婆几乎跟我奶奶家里断了来往。
In impression, I had returned old home a few times when spend the New Year only, but go back every time, other kin very welcome me, return money given to children as a lunar New Year gift. But the closest grandfather good grandma a minute of money also is done not have, so saying is not for money, the manner that is this inhospitality only makes me really be bitterly disappointed. My father advises in earnest to persuade them a long time, they loathing ground took out gift a piece 50 yuan. This thing I not too put on the heart, thinking at that time probably their condition is bad. But a native place and the husband's family outside answering is compared, grandmother home is apparently enthusiastic and much more interesting, later, whenever spend the New Year, I often am willing to return grandmother home.
印象中，我只在过年的时候回过几次老家，但每次回去，别的亲戚都很欢迎我，还给压岁钱。可最亲的爷爷好奶一分钱也没给，这么说并不是为了钱，只是这冷漠的态度实在令我寒心。有次我父亲苦口婆心劝他们半天，他们才极不情愿地拿出了一张五十元。这件事我并不太放在心上，当时想着或许他们条件不好吧。可是把回老家和回外婆家一比较，外婆家明显热情有趣多了，后来，每逢过年，我常常愿意回外婆家。
These a few things resemble bear of a heart, cut ceaseless, manage is random still. When spending the New Year especially, kink is in my heart, very disturbed.
这几件事像一个心结，剪不断，理还乱。尤其是过年时，纠结在我的内心，十分不安。
Mother of the year before last year tells the story that has her to me inadvertently. Grandmother altogether has 3 children, the first is the girl, because be the first child, boy girl is indifferent to. But the 2nd still is a girl, namely my mother, heavy male light female grandmother is grouchy. My mother in one's childhood special do not suffer wait for see, often endure grandmother to scold. The uncle is born later, grandmother grandfather glad bad, the uncle became the child with the best pay in the home, all sorts of delicious, amused give him first. The mother says, she once very grievance, very indissoluble, why doesn't the girl suffer wait for see? She always is a person hides to cry, dare be not discovered by grandmother, want to take a beating again otherwise. Carry water to cook every day go to the fields works all sorts of hard work. But elapse gradually as days, the mother does not have those who produce pair of grandmother to complain however read aloud. They get married now establish line of business, whole family is harmonious and happy. The mother is right grandmother, cherish is appreciated, esteem. Sometimes I bunted grandmother, mother even rebuke I.
前年母亲无意中给我讲起她的故事。外婆一共有三个孩子，第一个是女孩，由于是第一个孩子，男孩女孩无所谓。可第二个还是个女孩，也就是我母亲，重男轻女的外婆就不高兴了。我母亲小时候非常不受待见，常常挨外婆骂。后来舅舅出生，把外婆外公高兴坏了，舅舅就成了家里待遇最好的孩子，各种好吃的，好玩的都先给他。母亲说，她曾经很委屈，很不解，为什么女孩不受待见呢？她总是一个人躲起来哭，不敢被外婆发现，否则又要挨打。天天挑水煮饭下地干各种重活累活。可是随着时光渐渐流逝，母亲却没有产生对外婆的怨念。现在他们都成家立业了，整个家庭和睦欢乐。母亲对外婆，心怀感激，尊重。有时我顶撞了外婆，母亲还要训斥我。
When spending the New Year quickly last year, in my heart special perturbed. Recall maternal story suddenly, the mother takes a beating in one's childhood get a scolding, after be brought up however as before cherish is thankful respect grandmother, I can't help asking my, to in one's childhood thing, am I still cared about really? Tell the truth, it doesn't matter felt, it is bygone after all, did she hold me in the arms how? Am I vivid still well? Doesn't she give money given to children as a lunar New Year gift how? We or family member, my body is genteel dripping her blood, I am her grandchildren! In the past went, why too Where is kink? Have what feeling of gratitude or resentment, laugh at die out.
去年快过年时，我心里非常忐忑。忽然想起母亲的故事，母亲小时候挨打挨骂，长大后却依旧心怀感恩敬重外婆，我不禁问了问自己，对于小时候的事情，我真的还在意吗？说实话，没什么感觉了，毕竟都是过去的事，她抱走了我又如何？我不是还活得好好的吗？她不给压岁钱又如何？我们还是亲人啊，我身上流淌着她的血，我是她的孙子啊！过去的都过去了，何必太纠结呢？有什么恩怨，一笑泯之。
This tied my old heart knot, be unlock eventually, I feel relaxed suddenly.
这束缚了我多年的心结，终于是解开了，我顿感轻松。
Taking this kind of state of mind, I spend the New Year returned old home. My trial cares enthusiastic ground, actively be close to them. I discover surprizingly, they also are to mix so accumulate accessibly, amiable, they are pulling my hand to say I was brought up, take out a lot of snacks enthusiasticly to fill in to sample to me. I am experienced clearly, they also love me, also like me.
带着这种心态，我过年回了一次老家。我尝试热情地、主动地去关心接近他们。我惊喜地发现，他们原来也是和蕴可亲的，平易近人的，他们拉着我的手说我长大了，热情地拿出许多零食塞给我品尝。我真切地感受到，他们也爱我，也是喜欢我的。
The heart of my perturbed is to put down eventually. Those are age old job waves along with wind in kind interlocution came loose, be, between the family member, what does not put those who fall?
我的忐忑的心终是放下了。那些陈年旧事在亲切的问答中随风飘散了，是啊，亲人之间，有什么放不下的呢？(文/孙子恒)